"There are no villians. There are just people whose stories weren't told".
I have been considered as one of the most toxic player on euw for quite a long now, i have never denied that fact or tried to hide it. But i feel that in this particular situation i need to explain why. I do love League of Legends. It's a great game etc but its not the most important thing. I'm the tryharder. I have never been talented in such thing as gaming or something but i always tried and dropped every single tear of wet in order to do my best. I didnt dream of becoming an "e-sportsman". When I started to play League seriously it was 2013, in Russia you were bullied by literally every1 for spending so much time playing the games. But at one moment I understood that this thing, League of Legends, is something i had been searching for whole my life. And I decided to give it a real try. I dropped university, reallife and much more in order to become closer to achieving my dream. Since than I have tried my best every single game I played both in soloq and competetive.
So, why do people call me toxic? Because if some1 during the game on the highest possible level ignores other players and instead of playing TEAM game as League of Legends expected to be, goes for "solo plays" or just ignores every single call his teammates do because he thinks that noone but him matters, i hate him. I hate him with the same depth as I respected G2 or as I felt miserable after loss to SUP last year. Every single time i make a wish that that particular person would never exist in my life. Because for me its not "just a videogame". Its literally my life.
So if u ask me:"Why do u say such things?". I will answer you that in particular moment I feel that way. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings with or without reason. But if you hold me and three other people hostages by being so selfish and ego-focused that you cant even be a part of a team in a team game than go play casual and dont ruin people's lves.
I'm fine with every punishment I get for it or any other my deeds because I did it and I'm responsible for it. But if u say to me that ruining someone's life is fine when saying deeply offensive words isnt than I will never agree with you.